Good or Bad?

I've given in to myself. I've done the wrong thing. I hope I'll do the right thing to "compensate" next year. It's all about that thing that I don't want to be taken away. If I did the "right" thing, I'd lose about half of that. I really hope I'll do the "right" thing next year. How could I give it up … I've tried so hard to control myself for nearly a year. But next year, I think I'll find excuses for myself, like "many people are doing this too" or "you've been doing it, so why not do it for a little longer?" I'm bad. I won't tell anyone about this. I'm just posting to remind myself; I'll read this next year, to tell myself to do the "right" thing.

(If you happen to be reading this, please don't try to understand it.)